My Steps Were Ordered

This morning I woke up thanking God for a new day. I had no idea what the day was going to bring other than the 3rd interview I had schedule for 11 o’clock.

Lately, my prayers have been different. These days I always make sure I include two important things in my chats with God regarding myself…1) Order my steps 2) Give me YOUR strength to hold on today.

After my job interview today, which went very well by the way, I was headed back to the place where I lay my head at night and on the way I decided to check out this model home I keep passing on the road all the time. I mean what else did I have planned today other than sending out more resumes?

I popped in there and there was a gentleman who greeted me heartily. He had an accent. We didn’t chat long enough for me to figure out what Island he was from because I was so excited to see this model home.

After my solo tour of this beautiful home, I met with the man. We started chatting a bit. He asked if I was in the market and I promptly said, “Nope. Not yet.” We kept talking. We covered so much ground in our conversation that I mentioned my family is from Trinidad. He said he was from Trinidad too. I kinda figured that out once he got comfortable speaking with me.

Then he mentioned that his wife is from Grenada. I said, “Wow. My father has family in Grenada as well.” The man asked me my last name. When I told him “Darius”, he lost his balance a little and plopped himself in a chair near by. Thank God…because I wasn’t close enough to catch him.

The man, who is now known as James, said excitedly, “MY WIFE IS A DARIUS!” At this point we’re both laughing. He said we have to be related because Grenada is a very small island and the only Darius family he knows on the island is his wife’s family.

I told him a little of what Daddy shared with me about his family in Grenada and a cousin who we seemed to have in common. I wanted to be sure we were talking about the same person so I called my sister in Trinidad to confirm. I tried reaching my sister, but couldn’t get her. Turns out my sister called me later this afternoon and I told her what happened. She confirmed it. I’m related to James’s wife.

We sat and talked for a long while as he shared with me about how he met the Darius family and the type of people they were…content, kind, peaceful, wise, musical, good people. I’m sitting there listening to this man and i couldn’t fight my tears because everything he was saying matched a lot of what Daddy shared with me and it was as if Daddy was brought back to life.

Daddy on the left at age 21...I think. Daddy on the right at 87...I think.

Daddy on the left at age 21…I think. Daddy on the right at 87…I think.

I’m so full right now. We exchanged numbers and I’m looking forward to meeting Daddy’s cousin. Wow. When I showed him Daddy’s picture, he said, “Yes! Yes! He looks so much like my wife’s father.”

Words can’t begin to express what I’m feeling right now other then just…full.

It’s been seven months since Daddy died. I’ve been handling this new normal better than I thought. I had Daddy’s profile picture on my Facebook page for a while. I felt a little strange changing it recently.

Every time I paused to long to look at his picture. I’d feel sad and cry because I can’t call him. It’s still fresh. Still fresh. Meeting more family today felt strange, but I was happy because to here this man talk kindly about what kind of people the Darius family are made me proud and helped me understand even more the kind of man Daddy was and why people loved him upon first meeting him. He came from GREAT stalk. No surprise there!

All the stories this man shared with me today, matched everything my Daddy told me. It’s not that I didn’t believe Daddy. It was just cool to hear hit again from someone who knew the Darius family before he married into the family.

What a day…what a day.

I Am Doing A Lot!

Every time I jump on here to post something, I feel like I’m playing catchup or is it “ketchup”. LOL! Get it?

So here’s what’s new with me, guys. You already know from my previous post that I’m vlogging on my YouTube channel…I.AM.TASH.  (click the link below and subscribe)

Those who subscribe to my channel get a raw peak into my world while I’m living in the peach state. What I also do on my channel is promote small businesses. Aaaaaaand I have a designated segment called “Monday’s with Meeks” where my friend Meeks comes on and shares fun stuff…anything.

 This time we went to Chattanooga, TN to visit the owner of “Natty Naturals”, Dominique. We had a blast with her and also shot an episode for my YouTube channel, I.AM.TASH.

This lovely gal makes all natural Beard & Shave Care, Bath, Body & Hair Care, as well as Oral Health Care products. We love her! Check out her website and support.

Her shop is an oasis of Bohemian love! I can dig it!

After that, we had lunch in Chatty town and I must say for the little time I’ve spent in Chattanooga, I’m falling in love. I love the people. The city has a real southern charm I can get used to. I had a great time yesterday with my friends/family.  I’ll be back, Chattanooga!

Hmmmm…oh! I’m also doing radio now! Yup! I’m in my element! I’m on a weekly radio show called “Appreciation & Praise Soulful Sunday’s”. My radio name is “Black Coffee” because I’m strong and perky! Heheheheee! I am the co-producer, Graphic Designer for Promotions and Marketing, and the Radio Personality who keeps listeners up to date with what’s “percolating” on social media. Get it? Black Coffee?

So while you’re having your Sunday brunch, tune in to Appreciation & Praise Soulful Sunday’s on at 10AM. We are the only radio show focusing on Multiple Sclerosis, Cancer, Fibromyalgia, these topics and so much more. No holds barred either.

I remember a few years ago telling someone that I wanted to do both radio and television. Now I’m doing it! Hold up…does YouTube count as TV??? Well…who cares. It’s counts in my world. What matters is I’M BROADCASTING, GUYS!! YAY!

That’s all I got right now. Oh! I almost forgot! Aside from all of that, I am active with my Buckhead Community Fellowship Family (BCF). Along with my BCF Family, I am a member of The Community Lab which is an Atlanta-based coalition of nonprofit organizations that train young professionals to collaborate and execute positive change in low-income communities. I’ll blog about that real soon.

Aaaaaaaaand I’m seeing a therapist to help me with my grieving process. Yes. I’m busy, but the void is still there and silence is sometimes deafening. She’s a wonderful gal and we got a lot of bricks to take down. I’m grateful for the help though. I can’t do it alone. Too hard.

So there! I’m gonna get out of this room and spend some time outdoors. It’s gorgeous outside! Later y’all!

Hey! What’s new? It’s summer!!!!

Hey y’all! Sooooooo i’ve been busy! Per usual. LOL. I’m still on the hunt for a job, but I’ve also been having a little fun too. You know what they say, all work and no play can turn you into a mean person (is that what they say????)

Anyhooooo…among the other things I”m doing to stay busy, like journaling, blogging, managing social media for a local business, I’ve added “Vlogging”! Yup! I have a YouTube channel guys! It’s called….(drum roll please)…”I.AM.TASH…A SoFlo chick living in the peach state.” (click the link below…after you read the post of course)

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Yeah…my niece challenged me to start a channel to keep myself busy and creative. I thought…hmmm…not a bad idea. Plus I joined Shameless Maya’s “Do You Boo” group on Facebook and the challenge to shamelessly start a YouTube was put out there too. I figure this must be a sign. LOL!

So far I’m enjoying the process. I’m not really looking for fame or looking to be discovered…although i think I wouldn’t mind that…it just helps me stay in my happy place. After you check out my channel, please subscribe. Your support would be appreciated of course…aaaaaaaand if you have a channel I’ll subscribe too.

Lots of new things happening, peeps! Changed my hair up a little bit too…for the summer. I got Faux Locs! Mmmmhmmm What do you think?Faux Locs

Pretty dope, huh?? The goal was to keep them in for the summer, but because I am a creature of change and always doing new things with my hair. I predict this won’t be in my hair any longer than July. We’ll see.

Hmmmm…what else is going on??? I was getting involved in some tutoring on the weekends, but that’s on pause for now. It’s pretty cool. I”m actually helping 4th graders with the art of public speaking. I’m working on a format that would be fun and not intimidating. I can’t wait until that starts up again.

Summer is definitely here in good ole Atlanta! Lots of musical talent coming through. Tons of summer concert performances. I hope to at least attend one.

Anyhoooo…what have you been up to so far this summer?


Hello groovy followers! I haven’t forgotten about you. I’ve been a little distracted.

My “Sunday Funday” has been on a bit of a hiatus. You know…a sistah gotta conserve on the gas.

This week has been wonderful though. It was exactly what the doctor ordered. My mom, my sister and my brother came down for my nephew’s graduation. It was like having a mini family reunion.


There were  a lot of jokes on deck…per usual. My brother Bobby is a comedian..not professionally. LOL.


Since I’ve been back, i’ve been so consumed with looking for a job that I’ve neglected to spend time with my family. Having my family here from out of town kinda kick-started that realization. As I type this post my niece is putting faux locs in my hair. We’re bonding. (photos will appear when it’s done). She’s a cool kid. People call her my twin.


I’m most thankful that my brother, Don is doing better. He had major surgery a few weeks ago. He still has to deal with lower back pain every now and again, but he’s a trooper and FIRM believer in the power of prayer. So whisper a prayer when you think of Don, guys.


Welp…i just wanted to pause of a moment and let you in on what’s been happening with me. However, let me leave you with these three things:

1) Don’t get so obsessed with life that you neglect the people that matter the most…FAMILY. I attended my nephew’s graduation and i’m so proud of him, but I also realized that I don’t really KNOW him. I’m gonna fix that though now that I’m here in Atlanta.


2) No matter how dysfunctional your family maybe…love them anyway. Nobody’s perfect.  We were all staying in my brother’s apartment with his family. It was sardine city up in there and after a few days… you know how it is…certain folk can begin to get on your nerves. But after you roll your eyes or pop off…guess what…that’s still family and you gotta love ’em anyway. Overall, we had fun being together under one roof.

3) Don’t take for granted that the people you love will always be around. Being together, even though we’re all adjusting to our “new normal” not having Daddy around after his passing on January 24, 2015, felt a little weird and off. We got through it though…together. Love your family and let them know you love and appreciate them. Celebrate them. Enjoy each other. Tomorrow is not promised.

That’s all i got right now. I’m thankful for my boost this past week. Family is EVERYTHING.

In-town Field Trip!

Greetings followers!! Every time I come to the end of one of my amazing days and I say, “I need to blog about this,” I get distracted and forget. LOL! Sorry y’all!

Hmmmm…where do I begin? Should I break it all up into separate posts? Or just give it aaaaaaalll to ya! LOL! Welp…it’s a rainy day today, so i’m going IN!!

Some of you may remember that I completed an Associates Degree in Broadcast TV & Radio from City College of Fort Lauderdale. I finished March 2014! Woooohoooo!

Anyhooooo…my favorite professor and Department Chair of the Broadcasting Department of City College, Dr. Lewis, recently came to Atlanta for a visit. Every year he takes the Broadcasting Club on these amazing media trips to different cities so we could see what our future careers in media could look like! Two years ago I went on the Washington D.C. trip. It was amazing and memorable.

Dr. Lewis brought the new class to Atlanta and we connected he allowed me to tag along since I have so much time on my hands. (that’ll change soon)

Dr. Lewis! One of my favorite professors!

Dr. Lewis! One of my favorite professors!

It was great! We visited a company called Encompass. Encompass broadcasts 800+ channels delivering content in a variety of languages throughout Western and Eastern Europe, Asia, Africa and the Middle East. They’re mostly known for broadcasting ALL THINGS NFL! Pretty cool!

Then we had lunch at Atlanta’s famous Atlantic Station…well maybe not famous…but pretty cool place to hang out. Heheheee…aaaaand great place for celebrity sitings! It was unusually cold that day, which explains our attire in the picture. We had a nice time though.

Then we made our way to CBS Radio over at Atlanta’s Midtown. We hung out at V103 aka The People’s Station!



During our tour, guess who was in the house promoting the new season of Love & Hip Hop Atlanta?!?! YUP! Mona Scott Young! She’s was so nice and welcoming.

Tigger was in there too…well of course he was…he was interviewing her.

They were cool enough to give us a LIVE shout out on the radio too!

Our host, Promotion Director, Nicholas “NV” Vicente, was informative, fun, and gracious. Real cool guy! Follow him on Instagram >> @nvme68 and of course @v103atlanta

Okay, as I’m typing this…I have a lot to share with you guys. I’m gonna go ahead and break this up into separate posts.

Yeah…back to the topic..LOL…the entire day was great! Spending time with Dr. Lewis and the new class brought back some cool memories of Broadcasting school and it got me excited all over again about my future.

What i really enjoyed the most towards the end of the day was sharing my experience as a student and encouraging the new students to keep pressing towards their goal no matter what. Also, reminding them that hard work and perseverance REALLY pays off.

Okay…here are some more pics from that day! See ya on the next post!

Tigger doing his thang!

Tigger doing his thang!

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Mondays were made for Michelob, but Sundays were made for FUN!!

One of the things my friend told me was, “Tash! Do NOT consume yourself so much with job hunting that you don’t get a chance to pause and enjoy life. Don’t be a hermit!” I’ve been taking her advice. She’d be happy to know that I’ve been out and about. Lucky for me I have friends who enjoy my company and don’t mind sharing their blessings with me.

My homegirl, Chrissy, called me on Sunday and said, “Let’s hang out!” Without hesitation, I got up. Hopped in the shower, dressed, ate and headed out the door. Our destination on this particular Sunday was Atlanta’s High Museum of Art. I’ve never been there before…neither has she.

The shenanigan twins at it again!

The shenanigan twins at it again!

Let me say this first! Chrissy and I go waaaay back. We’ve been friends since college! (ages ago…) Sundays have become our time to wreak a little havick in the screets (yes…i said screets) of Atlanta. Sunday has become our official “FUNDAY”…So I call it “Sunday Funday”.

Chrissy is a budding photographer who is also an architecture nerd. She’s a bit of an artsy fartsy. I love that about her because I learn so much from her. She wanted to check out the late great famed photographer, Gordon Parks exhibit.

Taking it all in...

Taking it all in…

The exhibit was amazing. It was called the “Segregation Story”. I’ve seen black and white pictures of times in our country’s history that chronicled what we as African Americans went through before. What impressed me about this exhibit is that these photos were in color. Most of the photos were taken in 1956 where Mr. Parks followed The Thornton family in segregated Alabama. I forget which part of Alabama. I learned that Mr. Parks was a photographer and writer for TIME magazine and was known for his photo essays. His work was displayed in a secured glass case and on the walls  at the museum.

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Seeing these photos helped me. I’mma tell ya how. Growing up… my parents shared stories of their childhood in Trinidad and I always imagined their stories in black and white in my head. Clearly my parents are real people who live in color, but it was always hard for me to imagine in color. Seeing this display of art made me appreciate those stories so much more. I loved it. I loved seeing the women in pastel color dresses and the men in deep navy suits with matching navy skinny ties. This exhibit helped me see my parents lives in living color. GORDON PARKS_SEGREGATION STORY

Something else I noticed. Even though these photos capture a time where life was not easy for The Thornton Family… or black folks in general, the photos were still so beautiful. The people were beautiful. It was a very real and challenging time in America’s history, but it didn’t rob the beauty within.

My picture posts don’t nearly do this exhibit justice, but I highly recommend you check it out if you’re ever in the Atlanta area. The Gordon Parks: Segregation Story will be at the High Museum of Art until June 21, 2105. Go! It’s so worth it and a great conversation piece and educational tool for your children…or for anyone.

Me at the museum. Loved it! Can't you tell?

Me at the museum. Loved it! Can’t you tell?

By the way, my friend Chrissy got a chance to meet Gordon Parks before he passed away in 2006. It was a chance meeting on the streets of New York City. She said, “Tash. To see someone that I only read about in books when I was a kid…to see him in REAL LIFE…left me speechless!” If you knew my friend Chrissy…speechless is NOT a description for her. LOL!

I don’t know what our next “Sunday Funday” will be, but whatever it is…I’M GAME! After all, Monday’s were made for Michelob, but Sundays were made for FUN!



3 Ways That Keep The Monday Blues Away

Helloooooo faithful followers! I looked at the date of my last post and it’s been 2 months. Yeah…I’ve been incognegro, but for a purely legit reason. My number one man, my hero, my Daddy passed away on January 24th. Wow. It still feels weird to say it out loud or read those words.

Although, I’ve been on other social media platforms chatting my head off, I’m not quite ready to blog about what happened…yet. I will though. Stay tuned.

Anyhooo…that’s not why I hopped on the blog today! I’m on a bit of a high and I wanted to share with you…3 things you can do to fight the “Monday Blues”! Here we gooooooo…

Make the decision to be happy. 

I woke up this morning on such a high that I forgot it was Monday. LOL! Even though I’m still unemployed and looking for work, I make the choice each day to remain positive…be happy. It really is a choice. I’m confident that with every rejection I get from employers…it’s all good because they are just clearing the way for my AMAZING opportunity! So thanks, guys!

Work on a project that brings you joy. 

I’m currently working on bringing a theatre production to Atlanta. It’s going to be epic and I get giddy when I work on anything that has to do with that project. My task could be big or small. Either way, it keeps the “Monday Blues” at bay.

Eric Thomas! Enuff said!


If you never heard of Eric Thomas and his “Thank God It’s Monday” series, then you need to get on that…right after you’re done reading this post! I understand that not everyone can self motivate so sometimes you need an outside source. This guy is the real deal! Trust me! Nobody can get you pumped up on a Monday like Eric Thomas. Check him out onYouTube and subscribe.

So there ya go, my faithful followers! Make the decision to be happy, work on something that brings you joy, or check out Eric Thomas on YouTube! You can’t lose with any of these choices!

What do you do that keeps the “Monday Blues” away? Don’t be stingy! Share them with us!

New vibes…

Today was an amazing day and I’m gonna tell ya all about it. First, the sun decided to show itself today, which was great. Not exactly a piece of Florida, but 61 degrees wasn’t bad. Isn’t this suppose to be the South?

Anyhooo, I’m a SoFlo chick so I haaaaad to get out and enjoy the weather. I ran a quick errand and then surprised my brother. LOL…he was so shocked.

Siblings! The sweetest guy I know!

Siblings! The sweetest guy I know!

He was ecstatic to learn that I’m back in town for good. I spent a little time with him and his family. I’ll get pictures of them and share with you guys on another post.

Stopping by my brother’s crib turned out to be a dual purpose because I needed more ginger and coconut water for my detox green smoothie tomorrow and sure enough…he had it and supplied my need. Brothers ROCK!!

I had to go home and work on my secret project. Don’t worry…I’ll share that with you, but not now. Then my evening was capped off by hitting the streets with my friend Chris. We attended a T-Shirt launch called “I am…truth, love, and compassion”. We got in a little late, but not too bad. It was cool.

The launch party took place at Moods Music in Little 5 Points. Love that place. I took a picture with the owner, Darryl. He has a maaad selection of specs, all types of music, novelty shirts, jewelry, EVERYTHING eclectic. Yeah…that’s gonna be one of my hang out spots for sure.

HEY DAVE!! Shop owner of Moods Music in Little 5 Points in Atlanta.

HEY Darryl!! Shop owner of Moods Music in Little 5 Points in Atlanta.

Anyhooooo…getting back to the point of the launch…Coleman G. Howard is a mentor to young men and so much more. Check out his website, The “truth, love, compassion” movement is exactly what we need in today’s society and it’s growing. Being in a room with folk who are inspired to make change one person at a time was enlightening and time well-spent. It was a new kind of vibe that I was diggin.

(l. to r.) Yours truly, Coleman, Chris, Angelica.

(l. to r.) Yours truly, Coleman, Chris, Angelica.

It also gave me a great idea. I am many things to people that I meet and know. One thing that I always hear people say about me is that I’m an “encourager”. As I was sitting listening to why Coleman started the “truth, love, compassion” movement, I thought, “maybe i can start a t-shirt line as well”. I have a few quotes under my belt that inspire and encourage.

Support the movement! Check out

Support the movement! Check out

Amidst all that’s going on in the world that is depressing, sad and frustrating, we could all use some encouragement and inspiration…especially for our young people. Novelty shirts have always been my favorite thing to wear…so I figure instead of standing on the sidelines, why not be apart of the solution in some way. Be on the look out for a t-shirt line from yours truly adorned with my inspirational quotes.

I made great contacts tonight and will be in talks with some folk this week. Hmmm…although I’m still on the hunt for a steady income job, if I play my cards right, I may be working for myself sooner than I think. Ha! We’ll see…


17 days into the New Year and being in Atlanta for a full week as of today, I feel like I’m TRULY LIVING!

I’ve just been opening myself up to getting out more and meeting new people. I attended a workshop called “Highbrow Chicks Get SH*T Done” the day after I arrived in the ‘A’. Went with my homegirl Christina. (Pic below)

Attending that workshop was important. It has a lot to do with something I’m working on, but I’m not ready to share that with you guys yet.

I did attended service as promised and wound up running into an ole college buddy of mine. I swear black don’t crack. It’s been 20 years since I’ve seen Marchanon. Great gal!

I agreed to help her out with singing in the choir since she is the Music Director. She said they need more voices. (yeah. I sing) Service was wonderful. Small church with a big heart.

Then I just came back from a poetry/open mic/music event that one of my other long time college buddies invited me to. My girl Pammie aka Rare Epiphany was the headliner for the evening. Yeah…I have some pretty phenomenally talented friends.

Check her out on YouTube…RareEpiphany. Oh! And like her page on Facebook too!

I almost forgot to mention that I started my Mean Green Smoothie detox today. Whew! It was hard, but I got through day one.

I’m doing it for 7 days. With all the drugs I had pumping through me while I was sick and then recovering, I figured I needed to hit the reset button on my body FOR REAL! I hate the pulp in my drink, but I have to do this for my health.

Y’all …I’m out here living. I feel so FREE since I moved. I’m taking more chances and just LIVING out loud. I’m having a blast!

I have been plugging away with the resumes though. No job offers yet, but don’t you worry. It’s coming. Until then, God is faithful and continues to take great care of me and supply ALL my needs. He’s placed great people in my path already, which is what I prayed for.

I’m wiped y’all. Going to bed now. Tomorrow is another day where I get to LIVE FREELY! Life is awesome! GN!

I’ve been hiding, y’all…

Since I’ve been in Atlanta, I’ve been hitting the ground running. Staying focused on why I came back in the first place, which is to pursue a career in media. I’m working on something right now, but I’ll share that another time.

I’ve been real sensitive about people knowing that I’m back in town. You’re probably thinking, “Okay. Then whey are you blogging about it? DUH!” Ya see, I don’t share this blog on Facebook. Facebook to me constitutes the MASSES. Here in my little blog universe, it’s just you guys. I can count on one hand how many people from Facebook are actually followers of this blog. I’m totally okay with that. You’re like the private audience to my life.

Getting back to what I was trying to say earlier…I just didn’t want to run into folk who think I’m crazy for coming out here on FAITH alone. No. I don’t have a job…yet. First thing people typically say when you tell them you relocated is, “Really. So what are you doing? Do you have a job?” and when you say, “Oh…I came on FAITH,” …get ready for “that look”. You know the one..
So I decided that I was gonna hide out (aka not attend church where EVERYBODY will see me) until I land something so my conversation will be equipped with a proper answer to save myself the embarrassment and uneasiness.

Then during a conversation I was having with my niece last night…this happened…

Y’all, after that conversation and always believing that nothing happens by accident, I said okay, God. Then I woke up early this morning and He had some more to say to me…

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge
crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip
off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin
that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance
the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping
our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects
our faith.” – Hebrews 12:1,2

That basically tells me that if I’m taking these huge leaps of faith, claiming to live my life boldly so people can see how God moves in my life…why the heck am i hiding??? Fearful (keyword being FEAR) of ridicule or as they say these days, “shade” from people??? I’m letting my insecurities block what God wants to do or already has waiting for me on the other side.

Strip away the fear. Forget the possible naysayers. Keep your eyes on the One who has already gone before you, Tash! That’s the ONLY way my mustard seed FAITH will grow to the size of one of those Redwood Forest Trees!

My life is suppose to be a sermon. Hiding my sermon under a bush doesn’t give anyone hope that they can step out on faith too and move forward. Quite honestly, since I’ve been here, He’s been nothing short of amazing…taking care of my EVERY need.

I can’t believe I started out bold and strong only to find myself shrinking back in my shell. NOPE! Not happening. And feel free to hold me accountable guys.

I’m going to attend church this weekend, not because I’m hoping someone will be there with an amazing opportunity, but I want to show God that I will continue to let Him shine through me…no matter where I go in this town.

Now does that mean I want you to share this blog on your Facebook page?   Hmmm…baby steps folks…baby steps. LOL However, I most definitely will be in house of the Lord this weekend.