Since I’ve been in Atlanta, I’ve been hitting the ground running. Staying focused on why I came back in the first place, which is to pursue a career in media. I’m working on something right now, but I’ll share that another time.
I’ve been real sensitive about people knowing that I’m back in town. You’re probably thinking, “Okay. Then whey are you blogging about it? DUH!” Ya see, I don’t share this blog on Facebook. Facebook to me constitutes the MASSES. Here in my little blog universe, it’s just you guys. I can count on one hand how many people from Facebook are actually followers of this blog. I’m totally okay with that. You’re like the private audience to my life.
Getting back to what I was trying to say earlier…I just didn’t want to run into folk who think I’m crazy for coming out here on FAITH alone. No. I don’t have a job…yet. First thing people typically say when you tell them you relocated is, “Really. So what are you doing? Do you have a job?” and when you say, “Oh…I came on FAITH,” …get ready for “that look”. You know the one..
So I decided that I was gonna hide out (aka not attend church where EVERYBODY will see me) until I land something so my conversation will be equipped with a proper answer to save myself the embarrassment and uneasiness.
Then during a conversation I was having with my niece last night…this happened…
Y’all, after that conversation and always believing that nothing happens by accident, I said okay, God. Then I woke up early this morning and He had some more to say to me…
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge
crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip
off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin
that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance
the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping
our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects
our faith.” – Hebrews 12:1,2
That basically tells me that if I’m taking these huge leaps of faith, claiming to live my life boldly so people can see how God moves in my life…why the heck am i hiding??? Fearful (keyword being FEAR) of ridicule or as they say these days, “shade” from people??? I’m letting my insecurities block what God wants to do or already has waiting for me on the other side.
Strip away the fear. Forget the possible naysayers. Keep your eyes on the One who has already gone before you, Tash! That’s the ONLY way my mustard seed FAITH will grow to the size of one of those Redwood Forest Trees!
My life is suppose to be a sermon. Hiding my sermon under a bush doesn’t give anyone hope that they can step out on faith too and move forward. Quite honestly, since I’ve been here, He’s been nothing short of amazing…taking care of my EVERY need.
I can’t believe I started out bold and strong only to find myself shrinking back in my shell. NOPE! Not happening. And feel free to hold me accountable guys.
I’m going to attend church this weekend, not because I’m hoping someone will be there with an amazing opportunity, but I want to show God that I will continue to let Him shine through me…no matter where I go in this town.
Now does that mean I want you to share this blog on your Facebook page? Hmmm…baby steps folks…baby steps. LOL However, I most definitely will be in house of the Lord this weekend.