My Steps Were Ordered

This morning I woke up thanking God for a new day. I had no idea what the day was going to bring other than the 3rd interview I had schedule for 11 o’clock.

Lately, my prayers have been different. These days I always make sure I include two important things in my chats with God regarding myself…1) Order my steps 2) Give me YOUR strength to hold on today.

After my job interview today, which went very well by the way, I was headed back to the place where I lay my head at night and on the way I decided to check out this model home I keep passing on the road all the time. I mean what else did I have planned today other than sending out more resumes?

I popped in there and there was a gentleman who greeted me heartily. He had an accent. We didn’t chat long enough for me to figure out what Island he was from because I was so excited to see this model home.

After my solo tour of this beautiful home, I met with the man. We started chatting a bit. He asked if I was in the market and I promptly said, “Nope. Not yet.” We kept talking. We covered so much ground in our conversation that I mentioned my family is from Trinidad. He said he was from Trinidad too. I kinda figured that out once he got comfortable speaking with me.

Then he mentioned that his wife is from Grenada. I said, “Wow. My father has family in Grenada as well.” The man asked me my last name. When I told him “Darius”, he lost his balance a little and plopped himself in a chair near by. Thank God…because I wasn’t close enough to catch him.

The man, who is now known as James, said excitedly, “MY WIFE IS A DARIUS!” At this point we’re both laughing. He said we have to be related because Grenada is a very small island and the only Darius family he knows on the island is his wife’s family.

I told him a little of what Daddy shared with me about his family in Grenada and a cousin who we seemed to have in common. I wanted to be sure we were talking about the same person so I called my sister in Trinidad to confirm. I tried reaching my sister, but couldn’t get her. Turns out my sister called me later this afternoon and I told her what happened. She confirmed it. I’m related to James’s wife.

We sat and talked for a long while as he shared with me about how he met the Darius family and the type of people they were…content, kind, peaceful, wise, musical, good people. I’m sitting there listening to this man and i couldn’t fight my tears because everything he was saying matched a lot of what Daddy shared with me and it was as if Daddy was brought back to life.

Daddy on the left at age 21...I think. Daddy on the right at 87...I think.

Daddy on the left at age 21…I think. Daddy on the right at 87…I think.

I’m so full right now. We exchanged numbers and I’m looking forward to meeting Daddy’s cousin. Wow. When I showed him Daddy’s picture, he said, “Yes! Yes! He looks so much like my wife’s father.”

Words can’t begin to express what I’m feeling right now other then just…full.

It’s been seven months since Daddy died. I’ve been handling this new normal better than I thought. I had Daddy’s profile picture on my Facebook page for a while. I felt a little strange changing it recently.

Every time I paused to long to look at his picture. I’d feel sad and cry because I can’t call him. It’s still fresh. Still fresh. Meeting more family today felt strange, but I was happy because to here this man talk kindly about what kind of people the Darius family are made me proud and helped me understand even more the kind of man Daddy was and why people loved him upon first meeting him. He came from GREAT stalk. No surprise there!

All the stories this man shared with me today, matched everything my Daddy told me. It’s not that I didn’t believe Daddy. It was just cool to hear hit again from someone who knew the Darius family before he married into the family.

What a day…what a day.

Woke Up With This On My Mind…

Daddy and MeThere are some mornings when I wake up with a song in my head. Usually it’s a gospel song. This morning I woke up with one of my FAVORITE songs on my mind. The song is called “Sovereign God” sung by Maurette Brown Clark. The Lyrics go a little something like this:

There aren’t even words to describe just how great You are
In all Your majesty
You continually
Provide for me
There just isn’t anything that You can’t do
Lord I’ve seen Your work before
So I’ll trust you all the more
Because You are

You are the sovereign God
Bigger than all my problems
And every situation
There is nothing too hard
For the sovereign God

A wave of Your hand can command the seas to hold their peace
If you can handle the seas
Then I know that You can deal with all my needs
So I will put every situation
Into Your capable hands
I don’t have to know the plan
Because You are

You are the sovereign God
Bigger than all my problems
And every situation
There is nothing too hard
For the sovereign God

He is able to do exceedingly abundantly
Above all we ask or think
So take all your burdens and lay them at His feet
And watch Him meet the need
We have the victory
Because You are

You are the sovereign God
Bigger than all my problems
And every situation
There is nothing too hard
For the sovereign God

He is sovereign, He is
He is sovereign, He is
(repeat sequence 3 times, inverting each time up to one octave…)

You are the sovereign God
Bigger than all my problems
And every situation
There is nothing too hard
For the sovereign God

Whenever I hear this song, I just can’t hold back my tears because there is sooooooo much truth in this song for me. I’m crying NOT because I’m sad, but because my heart is bursting with joy…particular now.

If you read my previous blog (go ahead and read it if you haven’t), my Daddy was in the hospital for some complications. He’s 89 years old. My Daddy is no average 89 year old man and although nurses and doctors kept marvelling at how strong he was and couldn’t wrap their brain around how he was progressing so well and so quickly, I knew that it was my Sovereign God at work.

My Daddy was in the hospital since December 24, 2012. He was released into rehab about a week ago and TODAY he comes home! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!! So you see these are the reasons for my tears…tears of joy…this early in the morning. When I think about the lyrics to this song that I woke with on my mind…

There is nothing too hard for the Sovereign God. A wave of His hand can command the seas to hold their peace. If God can handle the seas, then I KNOW he can handle my needs. When I left to go to Atlanta knowing that my Daddy was in the hospital, I had to trust that the Sovereign God was gonna take care of Him. The funny thing is I thought Daddy would have been out by the time I came back. Ha! He was still in there. I have this really bad habit of thinking that I know what God’s next move will be. Ridiculous…right? When you put your trust in God, you have to put your trust in Him ALLL THE WAY…even when you don’t know what the next move will be. There’s a verse in the song that says, “So I will put every situation, Into Your capable hands, I don’t have to know the plan, Because You are”…that’s just it. When you say you’re gonna trust Him…that means “you don’t have to know the plan”…He is God after all.

When I came back from Atlanta and went to the hospital to see my Daddy…he looked worse than when I left him Christmas Eve. I broke down in a puddle of tears. After a reminder of who was ultimately in charge…I thought about that part of the song, “I don’t have to know the plan”. That’s when my “Beast Mode Faith” kicked in.

I’m so thankful to God for what He did for my Daddy. He has the blue print for his body, so who else could fix him. Through the doctors, nurses, respiratory specialists, physical therapists…God was in that room with him, showing him compassion, strengthening him, making the decisions, guiding the hands of the surgeons, taking care of him. He was there. He was there.

Everytime God does something amazing, He just adds more testimonies to the rolodex in my head that I can refer to whenever i forget to put my complete trust in Him. Oooooooh…I’m so overwhelmed with joy and gratefulness right now! There is NOTHING too hard for my Sovereign God. He is in control of EVERYTHING! He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all we can ask or think!

MY DADDY COMES HOME TODAY!!! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!