I’ve been hiding, y’all…

Since I’ve been in Atlanta, I’ve been hitting the ground running. Staying focused on why I came back in the first place, which is to pursue a career in media. I’m working on something right now, but I’ll share that another time.

I’ve been real sensitive about people knowing that I’m back in town. You’re probably thinking, “Okay. Then whey are you blogging about it? DUH!” Ya see, I don’t share this blog on Facebook. Facebook to me constitutes the MASSES. Here in my little blog universe, it’s just you guys. I can count on one hand how many people from Facebook are actually followers of this blog. I’m totally okay with that. You’re like the private audience to my life.

Getting back to what I was trying to say earlier…I just didn’t want to run into folk who think I’m crazy for coming out here on FAITH alone. No. I don’t have a job…yet. First thing people typically say when you tell them you relocated is, “Really. So what are you doing? Do you have a job?” and when you say, “Oh…I came on FAITH,” …get ready for “that look”. You know the one..
So I decided that I was gonna hide out (aka not attend church where EVERYBODY will see me) until I land something so my conversation will be equipped with a proper answer to save myself the embarrassment and uneasiness.

Then during a conversation I was having with my niece last night…this happened…
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Y’all, after that conversation and always believing that nothing happens by accident, I said okay, God. Then I woke up early this morning and He had some more to say to me…

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge
crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip
off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin
that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance
the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping
our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects
our faith.” – Hebrews 12:1,2

That basically tells me that if I’m taking these huge leaps of faith, claiming to live my life boldly so people can see how God moves in my life…why the heck am i hiding??? Fearful (keyword being FEAR) of ridicule or as they say these days, “shade” from people??? I’m letting my insecurities block what God wants to do or already has waiting for me on the other side.

Strip away the fear. Forget the possible naysayers. Keep your eyes on the One who has already gone before you, Tash! That’s the ONLY way my mustard seed FAITH will grow to the size of one of those Redwood Forest Trees!

My life is suppose to be a sermon. Hiding my sermon under a bush doesn’t give anyone hope that they can step out on faith too and move forward. Quite honestly, since I’ve been here, He’s been nothing short of amazing…taking care of my EVERY need.

I can’t believe I started out bold and strong only to find myself shrinking back in my shell. NOPE! Not happening. And feel free to hold me accountable guys.

I’m going to attend church this weekend, not because I’m hoping someone will be there with an amazing opportunity, but I want to show God that I will continue to let Him shine through me…no matter where I go in this town.

Now does that mean I want you to share this blog on your Facebook page?   Hmmm…baby steps folks…baby steps. LOL However, I most definitely will be in house of the Lord this weekend.

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In a new space…

Yesterday, I left South Florida and moved back to Atlanta. Yeah…I know…why would I trade warm weather, sun and surf, the comforts of being near family for frigid temperatures and horrendous traffic? Well it was time for me to act on my faith…some more.

I packed EVERYTHING in my Mini and we were off! Yes...everything fit comfortably.

I packed EVERYTHING in my Mini and we were off! Yes…everything fit comfortably.

Some of you reading this may think, “Wow. She’s all over the place.” That may be, but believe me when I say, my steps are being ordered. I always believe that NOTHING happens by accident.

I interviewed with a few company overseas for ESL Teaching (remember the certification I got?), but they didn’t pan out. So as the year was coming to a close and I already decided that I wasn’t going to go any further with the company I was working with, I decided to relocate back to Atlanta and pursue my first love…Media, since I didn’t hear anything else from overseas.

So here I am. Truth be told…I’ve always wanted to come back here. I always felt I wasn’t quite done with Atlanta when I lived here a couple years ago. I have a new mindset and I’m ready to press forward.

Like I said earlier…i had to activate my faith and faith requires action. God has been showing Himself faithful, as usual, in my life. I know He has paved the way for me. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other. You create your path when you start walking.

There are 4 things i keep in the forefront of this journey of faith that i’m on and I’m gonna share with you:

1. START YOUR DAY GETTING IN TUNE WITH GOD
When I get up in the morning, I smile because considering what I’ve been through health-wise, I’m so grateful to God for waking me up. I spend time meditating on His word and filling my mind with a positive outlook on what the day will bring. I pray (talk to God). I listen (spend time in His word). It really sets the tone for how I handle my day.

2. SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE POSITIVE AND MOVING FORWARD
I love that I have friends who are inspiring, empowering, dream-chasers, goal-setters, men and women of ACTION. I’m blessed to have these folk in my life. It keeps me accountable of what I’m doing. When I was in Florida, I had those same friends even though they were far away, but thank God for modern technology like, FaceTime, Facebook, texting, etc. When you surround yourself with these type of people, you feed off each other. It doesn’t drain you. Instead, it encourages personal growth.

3. EXPECT GREAT THINGS, AND GREAT THINGS WILL HAPPEN
This has been my new mantra and I’m telling YOU…IT WORKS!! Every day i say, “Great things are gonna happen today” and it never fails. Whether it’s something big or small, something GREAT ALWAYS happens that day. This keeps me positive and smiling on the inside and most times on the outside too. LOL

4. BE GRATEFUL
Through out the day or at the end of my day, i go through rolodex of my mind and write down or say out loud the things that i’m grateful for that happened THAT day. Having an attitude of gratitude keeps complaining away, keeps fear away, and allows me to see how the hand of GOD moves in my life.

How do you start your day? What 4 things keep you focused on your journey? Please share them with me. I’d love to read them.

Well, i have to get up and get moving. It’s time to continue putting one foot in front of the other. Have a wonderful Sunday folks!

Here we goooo…

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Good morning friends! I’m at work! Yeah…I had to come in early so I can get off at 2p and begin pre-op prep.

I’m a tad bit anxious, but I’ll be okay. After all, I’m going off to “the spa”. LOL! The spa is what I call the hospital because the way I see it is people are taking care of your every need. You know…I’ve never been squeamish about hospitals, needles, none of that stuff. So I always go in in relaxed mode unless I’m in crazy pain. My focus is to get better. No time to be in panic mode. Ya know? Plus being in the frame of mind that you’re in a spa kinda takes away from the fact that there are sick people all around you.

I decided to post today because I have to be at the hospital 5:30am and at that point there won’t be time to reach out to you guys.

Thank you in advance for your prayers. I know I’m in great hands. God is everywhere. So I know He will be in the operating room guiding the hands of those working on me. I’m not bothered by the fact that I will be in a hospital with the worst reputation for care. Remember…they said, “No good thing could come out of Nazareth.” (wink, wink) Everything will be okay.

Later y’all!

NO PLAN B

NO PLAN B

This morning I was having a chat with my home girl, Victoria. We were talking about how God has an amazing track record. It is impossible for Him to lie. Because we know this about Him personally, why do we get all flakey when it comes to trusting Him with EVERY area of our lives.

My friend Victoria moved to a small town in Maryland where she doesn’t know anybody. Although the place is beautiful and quaint…it’s literally just her and God. Prior to moving, she applied for many jobs all over the country, but this one came through. She ended up leaving Columbus, Ohio, a place where she had a strong support system, familiarity, etc to a place where none of those things existed.

I currently live in South Florida with my parents. I think I might have mentioned in my previous posts that I’m currently in a Broadcasting program at one of the local colleges. The months are viciously moving quickly and before I know it, March 2014 will be here and I’ll be done. Under the advisement of my Department Chair, mentors, and people whom I respect, I’ve been working on my Airchecks to send to various Radio Stations. I’ve actually already applied to several. However, I’ve been sending them to Radio Stations in locations where I know people. Ha!

Stay with me…I’m going somewhere with this. After I got off the phone with Victoria, I tuned into a sermon online entitled, “NO PLAN B!”. As I listened to Dr. Wesley Knight deliver this message from God Himself…I had to shake my head and laugh to myself. He said (I’m paraphrasing), “Sometimes you can’t be stuck on the waiting of a confirmation from God. That’s because your faith alone should be your confirmation to MOVE.” He also said (and I’m paraphrasing) “Angels are sitting around chomping at the bit for you to ACT on faith so you can give them something to do!” How many of us are willing to step out on faith that ‘maybe’ God will come through? Here’s the twist though…doesn’t He always come through? He does have a great track record. These are questions I’m asking myself. And from my own experiences, He has ALWAYS come through. So why am I sending my Airchecks to places that are safe in terms of knowing someone who lives at that particular location? Isn’t He ALWAYS with me?

Last year I interviewed Lynn Martinez, one of the local News Anchors, for a class project I was doing. After we wrapped up the interview, she asked me, “Let me ask you something. Do you have a plan B?” I said with confidence straight in her eyes, “No.” She said, “Good! That means you don’t see yourself doing anything else.” She was right. I really don’t see myself doing anything else. Broadcasting is it for me. I thought about that conversation today as I was listening to the ‘NO PLAN B’ sermon. I’m confident that God planted this passion for Broadcasting many many moons ago inside me. Well then…I should be confident to go anywhere…anywhere…after I’m done with this program knowing that I’ll be just fine without knowing anyone or having a feeling of familiarity. Truth is I won’t be alone anyway…He’s always with me.

You know it occurred to me that I’ve been operating on the ‘NO PLAN B’ plan for minute now and God has ALWAYS shown Himself faithful (that’s a blog post for another day). He just keeps building that track record. LOL!

My friend Victoria…she’s good. Living in a place that is unfamiliar and no familiar faces has created a stronger bond between herself and her Heavenly Father. This is what she told me. She’s my inspiration of what stepping out on faith with NO PLAN B looks like.

So, you can hold me accountable. I’m saying it now, “Lord, send me where you want me to be.” (big exhale) NO PLAN B! Let’s go!

BEAST MODE FAITH!

Hospital Pic_wordpress blogHappy New Year! Yeah I know we’re like in the 3rd week of January, but I had to say it because I haven’t posted since last year. Hehehe

The last two weeks of 2012 for me have been a mixture of great times and a little challenging too. Months prior to December, I made plans to spend Christmas and New Year’s Eve in Atlanta, GA. It was a trip of both business and pleasure. Christmas Eve brought an unwelcoming surprise. My father was experiencing severe abdominal pains. Now for anybody who knows my Dad, he has never been a sickly man and not one to complain about anything…even pain. But when he came to me and said he was in a lot of pain, I immediately put on my clothes and drove him to the emergency room. We were both confident that it was probably something minor like gas or whatever, but that emergency room visit turned into a night observation. I stayed with my Dad and wishing I could take the pain away. I wanted to cancel my plans to go to Atlanta and I would have…if it was just a pleasure trip, but it wasn’t. I really needed to get some business handled that could not be postponed any longer. I tried to move my flight to a later flight, but Spirit Airlines and those ridiculous fees would have left me penniless. So I prayed and asked God to take care of my Daddy. I trusted Him, left my Dad, went home to gather my things and headed to the airport.

I had a wonderful time in Atlanta spending time with my brother and his family, spending time with friends that I love and adore, and I even got my business handled. Through it all I saw God’s hand moving and even in those moments when I began to feel guilty for having fun knowing that my Dad was still in the hospital, God nudged me and said, “No you don’t! Don’t worry. I’m taking care of him just like I promised.”

When I came back home on New Year’s Day, I went home and rested a little and then got up to go see my Dad anticipating that he would possibly be released, but when I saw him my heart sank. He had all kinds of tubes coming out of his body and the one tube we both hate the most is the NG tube (very painful going in and coming out). When i walked in I greeted him with my big smile and stepped out for a moment to cry. I felt so helpless. One of my friends, Byron, sent me a text at that moment and said, “This is God’s problem to handle. Give it to Him. Pray and have faith that He will do what’s best. Period. Have worship and Praise God for His goodness. I’m not joking.” So I wiped my face and I did exactly what he said. I went back into the room with my Dad, I praised God, sang and worshipped. I promise you…after that…my faith took off into beast mode!

My Dad ended up having 3 surgeries in the span of 4 days. He went through a lot, but I made sure everytime he saw me, he saw my smile. Every time he heard my voice, there was joy in it. Every time I whispered in his ear, it was a reminder of who was in charge…our Almighty God.

The night of January 8th, I was experiencing some severe abdominal pain. A pain that was all too familiar from my past. I’ve had intestinal issues since I was an infant and have had 3 major surgeries in my 40 years of living…all because of my tricky intestines. I got scared because I knew the pain all too well and in my mind that meant more surgery which I just had 3 years prior for the same thing…my intestines/bowel obstruction. The pain was too much for me so I called my brother Steve to come get me. We tried some alternative procedures, but the pain was not letting up so we got in the car and headed to emergency…a different hospital from my Dad though.

Here’s what was crazy…Broward General Hospital (ironically where I was born) is ALWAYS packed in the emergency room. But there was only 2 people in there. I was registered and was seen less than 10 minutes. Unheard of…trust me. One nurse attendant came to treat me asked us, “How do you guys get through so quickly?” We told him there were only 3 people in the emgergency room. He said, “Are you sure??? There were tons of people in there. It has been a crazy busy night for us!” Brother and I just looked at each other and shrugged our shoulders.

They took a catscan and when the tests came back…sure enough it was my intestines again. I broke down in tears because I didn’t want to be cut open again and I DIDN’T WANT THAT DREADED NG TUBE IN MY NOSE AND DOWN MY THROAT! IT. IS. PAINFUL! After I came to grips with what was going to happen with the tube, I took my brother’s hand and my faith went into beast mode again. They admitted me and God has been handling EVERYTHING since. I’m still in the hospital right now. They found some other stuff for Him to take care, but I’m not worried…I haven’t been really. God worked it out so that I didn’t need to have surgery again. You see, my intestines were twisted and inflammation was everywhere, but GOD! LOLOL!!! The doctor said the inflammation went down and my intestines untwisted itself. Ha!!! They were also concerned about my kidneys because they found a huge fibroid. I can actually feel that fibroid as I’m typing this blog. Tests came back and the doctor said my kidneys are doing just fine, but they wanna keep an eye on me concerning the largeness of the fibroid so it won’t cause damage to my kidneys. I am not worried about a doggone thing. I know my God will take care of that fibroid too.

I’m happy that all of this happened…even the things going on with my Dad because I was taken to a place of faith where I can say I’ve never been before. It took me to a place of trust in God that I have never been before. Don’t get me wrong…the pain I experienced sucked and seeing my father in that hospital bed had my head spinning, but once I locked my mind and heart into the assurance that God was handling EVERYTHING…I was good. I am good. Daddy is good.

I don’t know who’s reading this. You maybe someone who is not a believer in God or this might be a boost for a believer in God. I can’t force you to take what I’m saying is truth or fact or whatever…I just know that God is amazing and whatever He decides to do from here on in even if I don’t understand it right away…He has shown me in so many ways that I can trust him with my life and the life of those I love the most.

Whether you are a believe or not…I hope this encourages you. Peace and blessings!